The Reason For The Season

Goodness Gracious! I've previously been reading the blogs of my fellow comrades and I feel somewhat insignificant. I sit there, reading the sweet concoctions of their writing, almost in a hazy dream as I read their amazing writings and such. And then after I'm done, I sit there. I sit. And think.

My life is boring.

Everyone seems to have amazing, inspiring, life-changing experiences that forever have an effect on my life, and if they don't, they still write like they're the freaking God of blogs. I become somewhat jealous.

My life is boring. And I don't exactly excel at writing. So....there you go.

That's my blog in a summary for ya.

I kinda feel like I should write something inspiring...........so I think I just might.


Every night I lay and think of what has happened through out that day, and then my mind flashes back to my horror of a reality. I just remember everything about life, about its inescapable grasps. I can't stop tears from falling. I try to hold them back, but the sting burns me, haunts my being. People always tell me to always find ten things that went great in my day.

And that's where my life begins to feel hopeless.

I really can't begin to think of even more than four.

Why?

Perhaps my mind is just set in this freakish gutter, stuck in a boggy marsh, sucking in my feet and preventing me from escaping. But I just have the hardest time of thinking things that are good.

Things that are really just....good.

One thing that reoccurs every day is my thankfulness for my friends. They are the reasons I wake up in the morning, the reason my day isn't a complete wreck. They are the reasons I'm still alive. The reason I don't run so far away. The reason I am here.

I say this in every post. But I just cannot express it enough.

And I am serious as serious can be.

My friends are the best.
I couldn't ask for anybody better.

Thanks Mindy for being so cheerful and willing to help, and such a fantastic writer with sky-high aspirations.

Thanks Katelyn for being a dinosaur, and for being just the person to make you smile every day.

Thanks Nikki for being genuine and sincere, even if I'm not even a part of her life, but she still is a great person nonetheless.

Thanks Becca for being the perfect best friend for me. Staying up late playing video games and drinking Dr. Pepper.....Ahh. Good times.

Thanks Emily for being the reason I still laugh, and for always being her. She always dresses like Emily, talks just like Emily, and is just perfect in every way. (Well, mostly!) Haha....Emily is awesome.

I'm going to go watch a short movie thing....so goodbye dear friends. I'll continue this list later.

Goodbye.