The Pain of Reality

It's 6:30 in the morning right now.
I had to do some homework because I simply didn't do it yesterday. DARN YOU BRETT AND YOUR PROCRASTINATING!!!
Oh well.....I finished a bit early, which explains why I'm on here. I just sat for like, 20 minutes, just thinking. I found myself getting really depressed....I'm getting overwhelmed by all these assignments, all these things that I have to do. I suppose I'm overwhelmed a bit too often...But I can't help it. It just....hurts all of the time. It just causes me pain, and there's no way I can stop it. No matter how hard I try.
I seem to be getting even more self-conscious about everything. I keep criticizing myself about everything I do or everything that's happening to me. One red spot on my face completely ruins my day. But you know why I'm so self-conscious? Because that's how I look at other people. I see details when I look at people. Not to be rude, but if they have a huge zit in the middle of their forehead, then I notice it and think "Yikes, they probably have been trying to get that off for a while. I feel bad for them." But the problem is that a lot of people notice details, but they don't think anything through and just go through criticizing them. So I know that if I have a huge zit in the middle of my forehead, most people are just going to be like "Eww....He has a big zit. That's really gross."
DARG!!!
Sometimes, I just wish I could fall asleep forever. Think of how nice that would be. Forever leaving in your dream world, not having to deal with the stress of everyday life. No drama, no idiots, no school....It would be so nice. I could have everyone that I talk to just be my friend, and they would think like I do. Ahh....How great that would be. But alas, it won't happen, so like I said before, no use wishing. Because all it's going to do is let you down and ruin your life.

"Sometimes we start living in the land that might have been, but that doesn't soften the ache we feel, when reality sets back in."
Elphaba (from Wicked)