Morning Ramblings

It seems as though life is just getting more and more complicated to me AND everyone else. I have so many friends having problems right now, but I want to help them. But I don't quite know what to do because I have problems too, and if anything I would like to have those solved first. Yet I don't want to be rude to the ones I love dearly, so I help solve their problems. But THEN I go home and I realize I still have all of the problems that I had yesterday, and for most of my life for that matter. I'm not complaining at all, I love helping my friends and I love all of my friends so very much, it's just that I still don't know what I should do. Should I help myself? Or should I help others first? So many people teach that you should always help others, so I follow their advice. The only problem with that is when I help others, I have no time to help myself, and fix all of my problems. So what should I do? Darg, so many problems.
Depression seems to be taking over me at the moment. It might be a lack of sleep, it might be because of stress, but the exact reason for my depression I know not. I just feel hurt, I just want to run away. Oh, how easy it would be to be a hermit....Now, I don't want to run away because of family problems, no, my family is being good to me. Life isn't bad at home, it's just that I'm pretty tired of being around people. I just don't want to deal with the problems that a handful of people cause me. No, it's not ANY of my friends. It's just a few family members (occasionally) and some idiots at school. Oh, how I hate dealing with stupid people. I personally believe that all those who are too stupid for their own good should have their livers ripped out (while they are still alive, mind you) and then should be lit on fire and fed to a hungry bunch of rabid dogs. If they live through all of that, they would then be thrown into a vad of toxic waste. See? I feel better about stupid people already.
You know what I hate? When things don't work out. When you've been planning things for the longest time, only to figure out the day of that it won't work. Darg. Stupid mother nature for causing problems. And then after that event you don't know what to do because you planned to do this thing for the whole day and now you aren't. So what are you going to do? Well, I call my friends only to figure out that they can't hang out, and some friends that I would WISH to hang out with I cannot contact, for I don't have their number. :P So what do I do? I waste my day doing wasteful things such as playing video games. And then I proceed to feel like trash because I just wasted the day doing (almost) nothing. No friends, no fun (well, a little bit of fun, because video games are pretty fun....) and no time left. Yep, a perfectly wasted weekend. Darg.
Well, I should probably start getting ready for school now. I hope you all have a better day than I will today. NO! STOP THINKING LIKE THAT BRETT! I need to think positively! Because I don't know what might happen today, something spectacular could happen for all that I know. So, instead, I will just wish you all to have a great day. The end.