Bored with nothing to do on a Saturday night....Bleh. NOTHING!!! I should be hanging out with some one! Why am I still here??? I don't want to call other people for some reason....I just want them to call me!!! DAG!!! I'm being to dependent. As my dad would say, "I'm being acted upon instead of acting myself." Bleh. Oh well...since I have nothing else to do with my insanely pathetic life, I will write here.
I'm tired of people expecting so much of me....It's really stressing me out. Just with piano, orchestra, math, and all of school in general. And I'm even creating stress for myself just by wanting myself to get a 4.0!!! DARG!!! It's not just other people's expectations, it's my own as well....Hhmph. People are always telling me to let go, that it doesn't matter if I do get a 4.0 or not. BUT THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND!!! I DO have to get a 4.0! I can't not get one! I....I just don't know what to do with myself....I'm just a worthless slug who's too lazy to call his own friends. I suppose I'll pick myself up and throw myself in the trash.
I just wish I could be a hermit.
Then nearly ALL of my problems would be SOLVED! FOREVER!!
No more people, no more school....Ahh. It 'twould be nice.
But I suppose that presents problems in and of itself, being away from the people I love...
Well, I suppose the world will always have it's problems............
If only there were a way to solve all of them.
Some times we sit down and think about our lives and what has become of it. Some people are satisfied with theirs, some people aren't and try to do better.
But mine.....Mine is just a hopeless mess of unknown fortune.
In a more logical sense, I don't know what to think of it....
We are a world driven by fear.
Buuuuuuuuuuutttt You're coming over next Saturday. YAY PARTY!!! That will jumble up your life even more in a positive, educational (though not totally), boozed up, apparational conflict......wait a minute. i lost myself.
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