Ropes Binding

Don't hold me too hard. Sometimes, you just need to let me go. I'm suffocating in your tyrannic grip.

Sure, rules sometimes feel a bit restricting, but they USUALLY are for the greater good. But not right now. :P Some rules just don't even make sense to me. At all. I won't go in depth, because then you'd probably be here for a half hour or so, and I don't want to take up that much of your time.
Life is a hopeless mesh.
It's great to have friends and family there to help you put it all back together again. I just feel like a tall lego tower. I feel as if pressure is building up in me, about to cause me to break apart completely into a thousand pieces. Yet, I'm tipping. I might fall over, yet still smashing me completely. And, even with that, there's a bomb laying next to me, just about to explode. So many points from every direction that seem to want to destroy me.
No, I'm not saying some one is out to get me. I don't have that radical fear of some creep trying to kill me or anything like that. I just feel like a lot of people and such are trying to pressure and stress me, trying to slowly wear me down, until I'm a pathetic stubble of a human. I have so many things I wish I could fix in my life......
I think that my life is bad, but I read other people's blogs and talk to them and such. And I soon realize, Hey! I'm not the only one. That, in and of itself, is SUCH a comfort. I know I can talk to people if I need it. And to add to that, I can talk to any of you who read this if you really need/want it. I see the need for people to be understood. I have that same need too, and we all need to fill that need before we burst into a thousand lego bricks.
You know what I REALLY like that I didn't really notice that I liked until now? Attention. I CRAVE IT! I figured that out from how much I actually enjoyed my birthday. And why? Because people actually paid attention to me. This sounds SUPER selfish, but it's true. I enjoy being with friends because people notice my presence and enjoy it. Very much unlike my home. Well, I have to eat dinner. Have a great life, everybody. Live with no regrets.