I've always made so many wishes...Only to have them be destroyed by reality and the killer of realization. I fear for a lot of things....It's just a strange thought, really. Fear...Why do we fear? I do my best to let go. I just want to live for the good times and forget the bad ones, but one's disability limits that. And I just hate it. I just feel hopeless, homeless....Sometimes. I want to be some one. I'm sick of being me in my life. Stuck in this body for this life. I understand not everyone will like me, but why do I have to focus on the people who don't? I just don't get it....
I want to live with no regrets. I just want to do my best. But I want others to accept my best. But why don't they? I have repeatedly said this in many posts. Which just emphasizes its importance.
I don't know what to do...I'm tired, but not sleep tired. It's just like....A weird kind of tired. Just....I don't want to think. If that makes any sense....It's weird. Well, I want to think, but not about math and all of that crap. Bleh. SO MUCH FREAKING HOMEWORK!!!!
I hate it when people judge. I was talking with my friend and her parents, telling them about my blog. So I said how I write on this when I'm having a problem or I'm depressed. And IMMEDIATELY her mom said, "What? No, you do NOT get depressed. Sorry, you just don't."
I was shocked at why she would say that.
I know her pretty well, yet she was just rude. How the heck does she know that I don't get depressed? Does she even know what I'm going through? DAH! I HATE RUDE PEOPLE! THEM BEING RUDE JUST PROVES THAT THEY DON'T THINK!!! BLAH!!!
There. I got my angry feelings out. I just think it's better that I say it on here rather than, you know, in front of their face. Because then I feel like I've said it, but they haven't been offended....So there.
I try my best to not be selfish or focus on myself. It's hard and REALLY tiring. I just wish I could have a couple of days be me days. Attention just feels SO GOOD! To have nobody care what I did....To have people pay attention to me, to have people actually like me.....Ahh...'Tis my greatest wish.
Dagwood. I want a ukulele NOW!
Sorry....that was rather demanding. But I just want to buy my ukulele....like, you know, now! I'm just impatient. Really impatient. Especially right now.....Well, there, you heard me blab nonsense forever.....Dang. I'm hungry. I'm leaving. Sorry for the boring post.
There. I got out my angry
It really is rude for people to just assume something like that. I tell people I don't feel good, and suddenly they say, "What?! You're MINDY you are always in a good mood." Uh-huh....right. I'm the all powerful, happy-unicorn Mindy.
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